Week 11

This is starting to feel more and more real. The little yellow booties I bought arrived this week. They're so cute and so tiny. I've had them sitting on my desk since they arrived, just because they make me smile when I see them.

We also told some more friends today. R&B were with me the day I got the call back from the fertility clinic on CD1. I haven't seen them since then! They had their second baby 8 weeks ago, I've been sick on and off, and it's just been hard to catch up. We were out to lunch and I was holding the baby when B asked me how our IVF cycle went, I said it went well, really well! And I'm due in November. I thought B was going to cry! She was so happy for us, which made me a bit emotional and teary.

The thing with IVF is that there's no surprise, our families knew about our cycle so when I got the positive beta it was more of a "what a relief, it worked" than a YAY! reaction when we told them.

My family aren't really baby people either, I know they'll never volunteer to baby sit and I wouldn't feel comfortable asking them anyway. They're more puppy people than baby people, if that makes sense. My husbands family loves babies, but we're the second last to have a children. My husbands brother and two cousins have children so there's a lot of babies and there's nearly always a baby or someone pregnant so it's just the norm. They were happy for us, but it was expected and more of a "about time" reaction.

Nausea has also continued this week. When will it end? I though this was meant to start easing by now. I'm sure if I didn't have a fear of vomiting I would've spent hours in the bathroom by now. Last night was awful. I kept walking back and forth to the bathroom but I just physically couldn't be sick.

A super sense of smell is still here, I don't know if I ever mentioned that. It makes my nausea even worse, especially when my neighbours are cooking something strong smelling.

And I cried over lots of silly things this week, hello mood swings! On Wednesday kitchen bin needed to be emptied but it smelt too bad for me to do it. But because of it I couldn't walk into the kitchen either. I was super thirsty and couldn't stand in the kitchen long enough without gagging from the smell. I wound up calling my husband in tears asking if he could come home from work early to get me a glass of water and take the bin out.

I also had my first case of baby brain. I was making pancakes yesterday and thought I put in a tablespoon of caster sugar into the batter. The batter was quite puffy and thick but I didn't think anything of it. I was cooking the first pancake and it didn't smell right. So I grabbed the vanilla and added some and then went to add in another tablespoon of sugar. It was then I tasted the sugar. But it wasn't sugar, nooooo, it was bi-carb soda.

The worst thing is, I even remember looking at the bi-carb soda and thinking "wow, that's really finely milled caster sugar. I must've splurged and bought the name brand sugar" When I told my husband what I'd done, he just laughed. I'm just glad I caught the mistake before I'd cooked up the whole batch and we'd started eating!

Tomorrow I'm officially 12 weeks. My nt scan is on Thursday and we'll get the results on the day. I'm not too nervous about it, I know if I'm high risk the scanning place we're going to will offer counseling on the day and can also do the further testing. And it's in the building next door to where my husband's office used to be, just down the street from our house. So I'm not going to be worried about finding the place or getting there on time.

I'll probably still have trouble sleeping the night before, the closer to the scan day the more anxious I get. But for now, I'm cautiously excited to see baby again.