Rollercoaster

Friday morning I had my scan for follicles and to check the thickness of my lining. The ultrasound was great, my lining was at 9 and the doctor said that spot on for where it should be. My left ovary had two follicles, one at 1.5 and the other at 1.8, even more good news!

I then went had had my blood taken and spoke to the nurse. She was happy with what the scan results! My clinic likes to trigger when a follicle gets to 1.9 so I was super close. She gave me the little cooler pack with my trigger shot to take home and said that she'd call me with my estrogen levels in a few hours and that I'd either be triggering Friday night or Sunday night. (My clinic isn't open on Sundays)

But then that afternoon she rang with not so good news. My estrogen levels were still low, 273 when the should be getting close to 500 by this stage. Not good, she warned me that with my estrogen levels this low it could go two ways. Either my estrogen levels will catch up over the weekend and we do the trigger and IUI early next week or this cycle will be cancelled. I got off the phone to her and cried. That morning I'd rung my husband at work with good news and warned him that he might have to go to his guys weekend a bit late because we might be doing the IUI Saturday morning. Now I had to call him back and tell him that it's ok, go to the guys weekend because this isn't going to plan. It was just so disappointing and so sad. 

So the nurse booked me into the clinic for more blood work this morning and I got up at stupid o'clock, drank a litre of water (my veins are shocking, water plus something sweet makes blood tests so much easier) and drove down to the fertility clinic. Not only is the waiting room absolutely packed but a woman and her husband decided it was a smart idea to bring their 2 year old along for their appointment. Ugh. Really? There are beautiful parks all around the hospital grounds where the clinic is. Not to mention a coffee shop just next door. Your husband couldn't have taken your daughter for a walk for a few minutes?

The poor woman who came in after me, signed in, saw this little girl playing, took some tissues and walked out into the lobby to wait.

The nurse who took my blood explained that my estrogen level doesn't match up with either follicle. So they're not quite sure what's going on. It could be that the large follicle is empty and doesn't have an egg. Or it could be that my estrogen levels just take a bit longer to catch up.

And now I'm waiting for this afternoons phone call. I've tried to keep busy so I don't just sit around and stare at my phone. After I left the clinic I got something to eat and went to vote (It's our Federal Election this weekend in Australia) then drove a few suburbs over to the big home improvement store.

When I got the phone call yesterday I decided I'd need to keep busy. I wasn't sure if I was going to paint over the ugly olive green feature walls in our entry way, or buy some potting mix and seedlings. I wound up going with seedlings to redo our balcony pot plants. Once the sun is off the balcony I'll head outside and plant them all.

And I found some movie vouchers in the husbands desk drawer, so tonight I'll go and see a movie so I'm not sitting at home worrying about everything.

I just can't get over the rollercoaster of emotions. From Yay! Here's your trigger shot we'll call you with a time. To sorry, not looking good, you need to be aware that this cycle could be cancelled. From a high to a low in just a few short hours.