Crying over pizza

I know in the last week I've been a bit fragile. It's getting a bit ridiculous. I know I'm being way too sensitive and I'm taking too many things to heart and being overly sensitive. But I am someone who cries easily. Movies make me cry, tv shows make me cry, books will make me cry too.

I'm just not in a good mindset or mood right now. I'm trying to take care of myself, distract myself and stay away from google. I went away for the weekend for a much needed time out. I've been going for an afternoon walk along the beach front every day. I'm working through my Autumn to do list (I even returned my husbands desk chair and picked up the replacement, something I've been avoiding for months) and have plans to get stuck into the spare room this weekend.

Sleep is something else I've been working on. It is a big issue for me. If left to my own devices I naturally fall asleep around 2am and get up at around 10am. That's fine on holidays but not so great any other time. I'm a CRT (casual relief teacher or a sub) and to get work in my area is tough. I don't want to risk sleeping through a morning phone call from the agency. I've been aiming to be in bed by 10.30pm each night and getting up between 7am - 7.30am.

I've also been keeping my emotional eating in check. Emotional eating and a complete loathing for exercise are the reason why I'm overweight. Yes, I've been having a cupcake each day with lunch but I haven't binged on any chocolate. Nor have I gone out of my way to purchase any ice cream or take a trip through the Maccas drive through for a cheeseburger and thickshake.

I'm also back on making a fortnightly meal plan and allowing for small treats. One of those small treats was going to be pizza from our local pizza store. I love their antipasto pizzas, olives, feta, asparagus, roasted garlic and tomatoes. So yummy! But I got an email today saying they've got a new menu. I was all excited to see what they've got to offer. They're a smallish chain that started about 15 years ago in the capital city near my home town. They've slowly branched out interstate and have been expanding their menu to now include pasta and desserts.

But they've gotten rid of my favourite pizza. It's been replaced with another vegetarian pizza that has eggplant and artichokes on it. And this made me cry. I couldn't believe it, crying over pizza. That has got to be one of the most ridiculous things I've cried over. I was so looking forward to my pizza, we love to eat out and get takeaway but have been trying really hard to stick to a budget and not eat out as often.

Once I got over my crying fit, I sent my husband a text message about the pizza. Poor guy, he's putting up with a lot from me right now. I'm sure the last thing he needs right now is to get a text message from his wife saying she's boycotting his favourite pizza place because they made her cry.