As I was expecting, the beta for the second IUI was negative. Yesterday my husband drove me to the clinic in the morning for the blood test, it was his last day of work before going on annual leave and it meant he went into work a bit late, but I'm so grateful he came with me.
Not long after we sat down at the clinic, the cranky nurse walked in. I knew our nurse was working, I'd heard her voice and I was hoping we'd see our nurse, but no. It was the cranky nurse that did my blood work. (She's the one that told me that "when" this cycle fails, not if. And also gave me the expired progesterone.)
Once we got home, my husband headed off to work and I got back into my pjs. I did nothing but stare at my phone and watch cooking videos on youtube all day. I was dreading cranky nurse calling with the negative result, but in the end our nurse called me. She said it was a negative result but my progesterone was good. She also said there was a note in our file about making an appointment but she wasn't sure if that was with the clinic for IVF+ICSI education or with our FS so she was going to ask our FS and call me back on Friday.
But 10 minutes later she rang me back, she'd managed to get a hold of our FS while he was in between patients and we don't need to see him, we just need to have the education and costings appointment. I'd already told our nurse that my husband is on annual leave and she asked if we'd like to come in for the appointment while he's on leave or if we need a break first.
We'd already discussed this that morning on the drive to the clinic so I told her we'd rather get the meeting out of the way and have it as soon as possible. We had the choice of meeting with another nurse on Friday or meeting with our nurse on Monday November 11th, so we have about a 12 day break from anything infertility related before we go to the appointment. It's actually worked out pretty well.
We could've rushed and squeezed in an IVF cycle before the day surgery unit closes for Christmas but I truly need a break. And I didn't want the added stress of fertility treatments combined with the chaos of Christmas.
Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas. It's probably my favourite holiday and I start driving my husband crazy because I want to set up the tree now! He makes me wait until December 1st before the tree or lights go up. Even though we live in an apartment we decorate our balcony with lights and I put a wreath on our apartment door. But because I love Christmas so much, I tend to go overboard with the baking and presents and wind up over-committing myself every year.
Part of me wanted to go ahead with an IVF cycle now as we've already hit the safety net limit and we'd get the maximum refund back and it restarts on January 1st. But we'll hit the safety net pretty fast next year anyway and then we'll get the maximum refunds for the whole of next year.
I still don't know how we're going to pay for this next year, my husband and I have talked about a few possibilities. We briefly discussed selling our apartment and buying a cheaper place someone but our apartment is just not ready to sell. We used our renovation money to pay for my lap and our two IUIs. There's a few other options we've got but I think we're going to wait until after we've got the price of the IVF+ICSI before we make any decisions.
It feels strange taking a break, especially when you want something so bad. But I know we need this break, just to centre ourselves and have some calm. No rushing down to the clinic or waiting on phone calls. No injections or pessaries. Just life continuing on like it was before.
Thursday, 31 October 2013
Tuesday, 29 October 2013
Not looking good
I went to the bathroom earlier today and saw that I was having some light spotting. I've been having light cramps for the last day or two and kept telling myself it was nothing.
I rang the fertility clinic and asked to be put through to Nurse J. Yes, she harps on and on about random things but she's the most empathetic nurse there. She's also the same one who took my beta blood test last cycle and rang me with the negative result, I know she can break bad news in just the right way.
Nurse J was in a meeting and called me back an hour later. I told her what was going on and that I thought it could be my period starting. She agreed that this late in the cycle, 13dpo, it's probably not a good sign. My beta is scheduled for Thursday but she's asked if I'd like to come in tomorrow, a day earlier.
She also asked me how I was feeling and I told her I was a bit upset.With the first IUI I wasn't upset at all, I knew it was our first one and a lot of the time the first IUI isn't successful. Both she and the doctor had told us that. But this second one was different, there was so much weighing on this IUI, it was our last chance before moving on. I so badly wanted this IUI to be successful and result in pregnancy.
So tomorrow morning I'll get up nice and early, drink lots of water and have breakfast before driving down to the clinic. And a few hours later I should know the results of the blood test. But I'm pretty sure that my period will be here by then.
I rang the fertility clinic and asked to be put through to Nurse J. Yes, she harps on and on about random things but she's the most empathetic nurse there. She's also the same one who took my beta blood test last cycle and rang me with the negative result, I know she can break bad news in just the right way.
Nurse J was in a meeting and called me back an hour later. I told her what was going on and that I thought it could be my period starting. She agreed that this late in the cycle, 13dpo, it's probably not a good sign. My beta is scheduled for Thursday but she's asked if I'd like to come in tomorrow, a day earlier.
She also asked me how I was feeling and I told her I was a bit upset.With the first IUI I wasn't upset at all, I knew it was our first one and a lot of the time the first IUI isn't successful. Both she and the doctor had told us that. But this second one was different, there was so much weighing on this IUI, it was our last chance before moving on. I so badly wanted this IUI to be successful and result in pregnancy.
So tomorrow morning I'll get up nice and early, drink lots of water and have breakfast before driving down to the clinic. And a few hours later I should know the results of the blood test. But I'm pretty sure that my period will be here by then.
Sunday, 27 October 2013
Progesterone sucks
Progesterone is probably the worst part of the cycle for me. I hate it. I have the waxy pessaries (suppositories) which I do nightly. Last cycle it was morning and night, so this cycle it's not as bad. But it still isn't a pleasant experience, it's a bit gross and it makes me pretty uncomfortable.
Progesterone gives me more side effects than any thing else. The fsh made me a bit weepy and the trigger shot left a red welt and gave me a hot flash and wave of nausea but that was only one day.
But progesterone? It makes me weepy and teary but it also makes me feel depressed, I just can't see anything positive through the progesterone funk. It makes me bloated and I retain water, and my boobs hurt, so much! Sore boobs have always been a part of pms for me, but this is so.much.worse. Oh, and the night sweats suck. I live on the east coast of Australia and it's well and Spring is well and truly here. We've already had a few days of 30c (86f) weather and night sweats are awful on those hot humid nights.
The worst side effect would be the vivid dreams. Sometimes they're pleasant dreams, other times they've been borderline nightmares. But it's the dreams like the one I had last night that I could really do without.
Since we've been ttc and since we've started down the infertility journey I've had a few pregnancy related dreams. Usually they're about holding my newborn son (it's always a son, never a daughter) or pushing a baby in a pram and occasionally they're about being heavily pregnant. But last night was the first time I've had a dream about getting a positive pregnancy test.
The silly thing is, I know what triggered this dream. Before I went to bed, I got opened the box of pregnancy tests I bought during the week and set one on the sink. Today is 11dpo, it's early but I've got a box of 3 tests and thought I'd take one anyway.
My dream was so real, it was in my bathroom with the same type of tests that I'd bought. The exact same clutter was on the sink and everything. In my dream those two pink lines came up straight away and were dark pink lines. I then woke up my husband to show him the test.
Then I woke up and it was 6am. Of course I went and took the test and of course it was negative. I know it could just be too early. My beta isn't until Thursday when I'll be 15dpo. But chances are highly likely that it's negative because I'm not pregnant.
And if I'm not pregnant then we need to have the talk about moving onto IVF+ICSI. Not just with the clinic but with each other. So far any mention of moving on has caused me to burst into tears. And we need to find a minimum of $10,000 for it. And we need to work out the timing of it. If we rush our clinic can fit in one cycle before they close for the Christmas break, or it's a matter of waiting until mid to late January to get started.
Ugh, all this triggered by one very vivid progesterone fueled dream.
Progesterone gives me more side effects than any thing else. The fsh made me a bit weepy and the trigger shot left a red welt and gave me a hot flash and wave of nausea but that was only one day.
But progesterone? It makes me weepy and teary but it also makes me feel depressed, I just can't see anything positive through the progesterone funk. It makes me bloated and I retain water, and my boobs hurt, so much! Sore boobs have always been a part of pms for me, but this is so.much.worse. Oh, and the night sweats suck. I live on the east coast of Australia and it's well and Spring is well and truly here. We've already had a few days of 30c (86f) weather and night sweats are awful on those hot humid nights.
The worst side effect would be the vivid dreams. Sometimes they're pleasant dreams, other times they've been borderline nightmares. But it's the dreams like the one I had last night that I could really do without.
Since we've been ttc and since we've started down the infertility journey I've had a few pregnancy related dreams. Usually they're about holding my newborn son (it's always a son, never a daughter) or pushing a baby in a pram and occasionally they're about being heavily pregnant. But last night was the first time I've had a dream about getting a positive pregnancy test.
The silly thing is, I know what triggered this dream. Before I went to bed, I got opened the box of pregnancy tests I bought during the week and set one on the sink. Today is 11dpo, it's early but I've got a box of 3 tests and thought I'd take one anyway.
My dream was so real, it was in my bathroom with the same type of tests that I'd bought. The exact same clutter was on the sink and everything. In my dream those two pink lines came up straight away and were dark pink lines. I then woke up my husband to show him the test.
Then I woke up and it was 6am. Of course I went and took the test and of course it was negative. I know it could just be too early. My beta isn't until Thursday when I'll be 15dpo. But chances are highly likely that it's negative because I'm not pregnant.
And if I'm not pregnant then we need to have the talk about moving onto IVF+ICSI. Not just with the clinic but with each other. So far any mention of moving on has caused me to burst into tears. And we need to find a minimum of $10,000 for it. And we need to work out the timing of it. If we rush our clinic can fit in one cycle before they close for the Christmas break, or it's a matter of waiting until mid to late January to get started.
Ugh, all this triggered by one very vivid progesterone fueled dream.
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
Second and last IUI
Today was the day for my second IUI. I'd love to say that everything was wonderful, but it wasn't. The lab took forever to prep the husbands sample and I was a ball of anxious energy. But happy energy, I started to drive the husband a bit crazy with my non stop chatter and questions.
Our FS did the IUI, he came over in between surgeries to perform it. Yesterday when the lovely nurse told me that the IUI was booked she said that another FS would be performing it but this morning the clinic rang and told me that if we could get in about 15mins earlier than our scheduled time our FS would be available. (Which meant I rushed to get ready and forgot to shave my legs, whoops!)
I found it to be really painful again. I have never had a problem with pap smears or internal ultrasounds but this procedure hurt. It hurt last time so I knew what was coming and that probably made it worse too.
The husbands sample wasn't that great, his count had risen to 10 million but after washing the count was down to 500,000. After the IUI was done our FS stayed and talked with us a while, he always uses the sandwich technique when giving bad news. He layers the bad news in between to good or positive things. He was happy that I'd responded well and had surged on my own without needing a trigger shot, but with the husbands count being low it does drastically reduce our chances this cycle. It wasn't so low that it was pointless performing the IUI because you only need one sperm to make it to that egg and we've got 500,000 of them on their way.
The FS said that with the husbands SA always being borderline or below average that this is the final IUI he'll do with us. He's hopeful that this cycle will be successful, but if it isn't then our next step is IVF with ICSI. I started to get a bit upset, I wasn't crying I just got a little teary. He saw this and was a bit concerned, he said it's not that we can't get pregnant it's just that we just need more science to get us there. And that for the next two weeks my job is to relax and think happy thoughts.
The curt nurse from last week assisted with the IUI and recommended that the husband and I both take an extra supplement, coQ10. I already take Elevit, a prenatal that the GP and the FS reccomended and the husband takes Menevit which is a multivitamin to support mens fertility. It was after she'd talked to us about that and handed me my progesterone pessaries (only one 200mg, once a day! Not one morning and 400mg at night!) and aftercare paperwork that I realised she'd made a mistake. She'd given me someone else's paperwork. I was just about to say something when she came back in with the right form and corrected the mistake.
But then when I got home I noticed something strange on the box of pessaries, there was a date that said exp Sept 2013. All I could think was, surely that's not the expiry date! This little box of progestrone cost me $80, it can't be expired! So I opened them up and there it was, stamped on each pessary wrapper was "expiry Sept 13" I rang the clinic and was put through the to the nurse, sure enough the progesterone was expired. Apparently she'd even entered the expiry date onto my file and just hadn't realised we're in October. Ah huh. She only checked the date with us at least three times, once on the consent form, once on the sample when it was dropped off and once on the prepared washed sample.
A small part of me thinks that she did it on purpose and wants this cycle to fail for us. I just can't help it. I know it's an over reaction and I'm being paranoid but first it was her telling me that "when this cycle fails" and now the expired medication.
I went back down to the clinic and exchanged the progestrone for a new box, the poor receptionist kept apologising and showed me the date on the new box twice, March 2015.
Now I wait. The beta is on October 31st, the day before our wedding anniversary and the day before the husband starts his two weeks of annual leave. So we're either going to a great anniversary and break and start planning how we share the wonderful news with our families. Or we're going to spend those two weeks shuffling money around to pay for the IVF and attending appointments, counseling and education sessions.
Our FS did the IUI, he came over in between surgeries to perform it. Yesterday when the lovely nurse told me that the IUI was booked she said that another FS would be performing it but this morning the clinic rang and told me that if we could get in about 15mins earlier than our scheduled time our FS would be available. (Which meant I rushed to get ready and forgot to shave my legs, whoops!)
I found it to be really painful again. I have never had a problem with pap smears or internal ultrasounds but this procedure hurt. It hurt last time so I knew what was coming and that probably made it worse too.
The husbands sample wasn't that great, his count had risen to 10 million but after washing the count was down to 500,000. After the IUI was done our FS stayed and talked with us a while, he always uses the sandwich technique when giving bad news. He layers the bad news in between to good or positive things. He was happy that I'd responded well and had surged on my own without needing a trigger shot, but with the husbands count being low it does drastically reduce our chances this cycle. It wasn't so low that it was pointless performing the IUI because you only need one sperm to make it to that egg and we've got 500,000 of them on their way.
The FS said that with the husbands SA always being borderline or below average that this is the final IUI he'll do with us. He's hopeful that this cycle will be successful, but if it isn't then our next step is IVF with ICSI. I started to get a bit upset, I wasn't crying I just got a little teary. He saw this and was a bit concerned, he said it's not that we can't get pregnant it's just that we just need more science to get us there. And that for the next two weeks my job is to relax and think happy thoughts.
The curt nurse from last week assisted with the IUI and recommended that the husband and I both take an extra supplement, coQ10. I already take Elevit, a prenatal that the GP and the FS reccomended and the husband takes Menevit which is a multivitamin to support mens fertility. It was after she'd talked to us about that and handed me my progesterone pessaries (only one 200mg, once a day! Not one morning and 400mg at night!) and aftercare paperwork that I realised she'd made a mistake. She'd given me someone else's paperwork. I was just about to say something when she came back in with the right form and corrected the mistake.
But then when I got home I noticed something strange on the box of pessaries, there was a date that said exp Sept 2013. All I could think was, surely that's not the expiry date! This little box of progestrone cost me $80, it can't be expired! So I opened them up and there it was, stamped on each pessary wrapper was "expiry Sept 13" I rang the clinic and was put through the to the nurse, sure enough the progesterone was expired. Apparently she'd even entered the expiry date onto my file and just hadn't realised we're in October. Ah huh. She only checked the date with us at least three times, once on the consent form, once on the sample when it was dropped off and once on the prepared washed sample.
A small part of me thinks that she did it on purpose and wants this cycle to fail for us. I just can't help it. I know it's an over reaction and I'm being paranoid but first it was her telling me that "when this cycle fails" and now the expired medication.
I went back down to the clinic and exchanged the progestrone for a new box, the poor receptionist kept apologising and showed me the date on the new box twice, March 2015.
Now I wait. The beta is on October 31st, the day before our wedding anniversary and the day before the husband starts his two weeks of annual leave. So we're either going to a great anniversary and break and start planning how we share the wonderful news with our families. Or we're going to spend those two weeks shuffling money around to pay for the IVF and attending appointments, counseling and education sessions.
Tuesday, 15 October 2013
IUI #2 is scheduled!
I had a rough day yesterday. The blood test took four attempts from two different nurses, one being the curt nurse from last week, but my estrogen had risen to 789 which is good.
Today was great! I had the lovely nurse from Saturday. The blood test was a breeze and painless. Then she rang me with the fantastic news, my estrogen is at 1107 and my LH is surging and at 22 so no stinging burning trigger shot is needed!
Originally I had a scan and blood test booked for 9am tomorrow, but that's been cancelled because we're doing the IUI at 10.40am instead! My husbands appointment is at 10am and then we'll go downstairs to the coffee shop and wait until everything is prepared and ready.
This just feels like a better cycle than the IUI we did last month. I've responded to the FSH and my numbers have been steadily rising instead of rising than falling or jumping up high one day then barely rising the next. Also, tomorrow would've been my grandmother's 97th birthday, it just feels like a good date.
Today was great! I had the lovely nurse from Saturday. The blood test was a breeze and painless. Then she rang me with the fantastic news, my estrogen is at 1107 and my LH is surging and at 22 so no stinging burning trigger shot is needed!
Originally I had a scan and blood test booked for 9am tomorrow, but that's been cancelled because we're doing the IUI at 10.40am instead! My husbands appointment is at 10am and then we'll go downstairs to the coffee shop and wait until everything is prepared and ready.
This just feels like a better cycle than the IUI we did last month. I've responded to the FSH and my numbers have been steadily rising instead of rising than falling or jumping up high one day then barely rising the next. Also, tomorrow would've been my grandmother's 97th birthday, it just feels like a good date.
Saturday, 12 October 2013
A much better day!
I went back to the Fertility Clinic for another monitoring blood test today, because it was a Saturday my husband came with me. Usually he doesn't come to these quick appointments but I had such a horrible time at my last blood test I wanted him there.
The nurse doing the blood work today was lovely! (I could hear Nurse J's voice but she must've been assisting with procedures today) Friendly, sweet and she took her time to read my file rather than just quickly glance at it. She let me know that our FS had made a note about increasing my dosage if today's results showed that my estrogen levels were still low. I was really relieved to hear that, it reassured me that our FS is tracking this cycle closely and has given me more hope for this cycle.
I know that if our FS had any doubts about this cycle he'd cancel it, he must still think we have a chance even with the husbands borderline SA results.
She did struggle to find the vein in my arm, but that's not her fault. I have shocking veins even when I drink a litre of water before a blood draw. I only have one good vein and each time they use it, it hurts and gets more sensitive. It was a bit bruised from Thursdays blood draw and the nurse today suggested icing it when we got home. We had plans to go out (a check up at the GP for hubby and then brunch out) so my husband bought a bottle of water and I put the cold bottle on my arm as a make-do ice pack.
After brunch we were walking to the car and I heard my phone chime. I'd missed the call from the clinic so rang them back. My estrogen levels are at 395! What a fantastic number! I am so relieved that they've risen. The nurse had spoken to our FS and I don't have to increase my dosage, just stay on 75.
On Monday I go back in for another blood draw, if the numbers are still rising then I'll have a scan on Tuesday and we'll do the IUI on Wednesday or Thursday.
I really needed this today. I needed a upbeat and positive nurse, a good result from the blood work and reassurance that our FS has faith in this cycle.
The nurse doing the blood work today was lovely! (I could hear Nurse J's voice but she must've been assisting with procedures today) Friendly, sweet and she took her time to read my file rather than just quickly glance at it. She let me know that our FS had made a note about increasing my dosage if today's results showed that my estrogen levels were still low. I was really relieved to hear that, it reassured me that our FS is tracking this cycle closely and has given me more hope for this cycle.
I know that if our FS had any doubts about this cycle he'd cancel it, he must still think we have a chance even with the husbands borderline SA results.
She did struggle to find the vein in my arm, but that's not her fault. I have shocking veins even when I drink a litre of water before a blood draw. I only have one good vein and each time they use it, it hurts and gets more sensitive. It was a bit bruised from Thursdays blood draw and the nurse today suggested icing it when we got home. We had plans to go out (a check up at the GP for hubby and then brunch out) so my husband bought a bottle of water and I put the cold bottle on my arm as a make-do ice pack.
After brunch we were walking to the car and I heard my phone chime. I'd missed the call from the clinic so rang them back. My estrogen levels are at 395! What a fantastic number! I am so relieved that they've risen. The nurse had spoken to our FS and I don't have to increase my dosage, just stay on 75.
On Monday I go back in for another blood draw, if the numbers are still rising then I'll have a scan on Tuesday and we'll do the IUI on Wednesday or Thursday.
I really needed this today. I needed a upbeat and positive nurse, a good result from the blood work and reassurance that our FS has faith in this cycle.
Friday, 11 October 2013
The bad day
I swear, some of the nurses at my fertility clinic have the worst bedside manner. I went in yesterday morning for the first monitoring blood test of this IUI cycle. I hadn't seen this nurse before and she was awful.
Before she took my blood she asked if I'd been for a scan. I said that I hadn't, I was just in for my first blood test. She told me that it was strange I hadn't had a scan (last time I didn't have a scan this early) when I explained I was at day 10 not day 14 she asked why I was in to have my blood taken so early in the cycle. I didn't know why, it was just what Nurse J told me to do and what happened last cycle.
She took my blood and I asked if the husbands interim SA results were in. She read through them and then turned to me and asked why we were bothering to do a second IUI with borderline results and why hadn't we seen Dr S to talk about ICSI. She then said that when this cycle isn't successful we should definitely meet with Dr S to talk about moving on. No if, just when. Nice. So it's day 10 and she's already predicting this cycle will be a failure.
I had to get out of there, she was so negative and was talking to me as if I was making the wrong decision and was going against the clinics directions, so I grabbed my bag and stood up heading for the door. I knew I was going to cry at any minute and I didn't want to start crying in the clinic because then I'd have to walk out of there and through the hospital to get to the car park.
I got to the car park and rang the husband. He was still at home but in a rush to get out the door to work and didn't have time to hear about the results. I got home and cried. Then managed to pick a fight with him again a few hours later over where he'd left a receipt. He called me back on his lunch break and I told him what had happened this morning. He was not impressed with what the nurse had said or how she'd said it.
By this stage I'd had a few hours to think about it and I was ready to call Dr S and ask for this cycle to be cancelled. I'd worked myself up into a teary mess and I couldn't see a reason why to continue with it. Especially when the nurse rang me back to say my estrogen levels were only at 173. By nature my husband is a laid back and positive guy, the opposite to me. He calmed me down and told me that we might as well give this cycle a try. We're already 10 days into it so there's no harm in seeing it through.
And then my day got worse. Six weeks ago we ordered a new sofa, we had to wait for it to be made and it was delivered yesterday afternoon. Except it wouldn't fit through the basement door to the lift. The only thing stopping it was the legs on the sofa and of course the delivery guys didn't have a drill or screwdriver to take them off. I had no idea where the screwdrivers were in our apartment so in the end they just left the sofa in our car space.
I was in a panic, I'd had a bad day with the nurse and the clinic. And now the sofa I'd waited so long for wasn't going to fit in the door way. I was picturing having to return the sofa and wait another six weeks to have another one made. Of course it made me cry. It was just the icing on the cake.
Eventually, after a few hours lots and lots of cursing the husband and I got the sofa into our apartment. But I was such a drama and a lot of messing around. I felt awful, I'd had a nurse with the bedside manner of a brick, I'd argued with the husband and then had to spend ages fighting to get the sofa through the door. It was just a bad day.
Before she took my blood she asked if I'd been for a scan. I said that I hadn't, I was just in for my first blood test. She told me that it was strange I hadn't had a scan (last time I didn't have a scan this early) when I explained I was at day 10 not day 14 she asked why I was in to have my blood taken so early in the cycle. I didn't know why, it was just what Nurse J told me to do and what happened last cycle.
She took my blood and I asked if the husbands interim SA results were in. She read through them and then turned to me and asked why we were bothering to do a second IUI with borderline results and why hadn't we seen Dr S to talk about ICSI. She then said that when this cycle isn't successful we should definitely meet with Dr S to talk about moving on. No if, just when. Nice. So it's day 10 and she's already predicting this cycle will be a failure.
I had to get out of there, she was so negative and was talking to me as if I was making the wrong decision and was going against the clinics directions, so I grabbed my bag and stood up heading for the door. I knew I was going to cry at any minute and I didn't want to start crying in the clinic because then I'd have to walk out of there and through the hospital to get to the car park.
I got to the car park and rang the husband. He was still at home but in a rush to get out the door to work and didn't have time to hear about the results. I got home and cried. Then managed to pick a fight with him again a few hours later over where he'd left a receipt. He called me back on his lunch break and I told him what had happened this morning. He was not impressed with what the nurse had said or how she'd said it.
By this stage I'd had a few hours to think about it and I was ready to call Dr S and ask for this cycle to be cancelled. I'd worked myself up into a teary mess and I couldn't see a reason why to continue with it. Especially when the nurse rang me back to say my estrogen levels were only at 173. By nature my husband is a laid back and positive guy, the opposite to me. He calmed me down and told me that we might as well give this cycle a try. We're already 10 days into it so there's no harm in seeing it through.
And then my day got worse. Six weeks ago we ordered a new sofa, we had to wait for it to be made and it was delivered yesterday afternoon. Except it wouldn't fit through the basement door to the lift. The only thing stopping it was the legs on the sofa and of course the delivery guys didn't have a drill or screwdriver to take them off. I had no idea where the screwdrivers were in our apartment so in the end they just left the sofa in our car space.
I was in a panic, I'd had a bad day with the nurse and the clinic. And now the sofa I'd waited so long for wasn't going to fit in the door way. I was picturing having to return the sofa and wait another six weeks to have another one made. Of course it made me cry. It was just the icing on the cake.
Eventually, after a few hours lots and lots of cursing the husband and I got the sofa into our apartment. But I was such a drama and a lot of messing around. I felt awful, I'd had a nurse with the bedside manner of a brick, I'd argued with the husband and then had to spend ages fighting to get the sofa through the door. It was just a bad day.
Wednesday, 9 October 2013
Another cycle starts
I started the FSH shots again last Wednesday. I was a bit unsure about starting this cycle while waiting for the results of the husbands repeat SA. I rang the clinic and got our super chatty nurse. As much as I've complained about her, I have to say that she has been pretty great the last few times I've seen or spoken to her. And she handled the news of the negative pregnancy test really well, she was professional and sympathetic. I think she was more upset about the negative pregnancy test than I was!
She spoke to me for ages and helped me decide if we should go straight to this cycle or take a break. She recommended starting another cycle straight away because best case scenario - the husbands sample on the IUI day was just a once off low result and we just keep on track with this IUI cycle. Worst case scenario - his count is still low and we have a meeting with the FS who'll either cancel this cycle or turn it into an IVF cycle. Knowing our FS is quite cautious I think he'd cancel it rather then swap to IVF midway through. Either way I'm ok with it.
I'm trying to be positive this time around, so thinking positive only thoughts I started with the shots again on day 2. Plus, I had a leftover pen of Gonal F that I'd only used once sitting in the fridge and was already paid from from our last cycle. If we cancel this cycle then I only have to pay for half the meds.
I'm pretty sure that the increased dose of FSH is working, last cycle it wasn't until around day 16 that I had a dominate follicle at 1.6. I had no real side effects that cycle either. This cycle I've been a bit more teary and the last two days, day 8 and 9, I've had a bit of cramping, well, not real cramping just sort of twinges near my ovaries. I'm a bit bloated too.
Tomorrow on day 10 I go in for my first monitoring blood test. I'm really hoping that everything is on track with the blood work and the results of the husbands SA.
She spoke to me for ages and helped me decide if we should go straight to this cycle or take a break. She recommended starting another cycle straight away because best case scenario - the husbands sample on the IUI day was just a once off low result and we just keep on track with this IUI cycle. Worst case scenario - his count is still low and we have a meeting with the FS who'll either cancel this cycle or turn it into an IVF cycle. Knowing our FS is quite cautious I think he'd cancel it rather then swap to IVF midway through. Either way I'm ok with it.
I'm trying to be positive this time around, so thinking positive only thoughts I started with the shots again on day 2. Plus, I had a leftover pen of Gonal F that I'd only used once sitting in the fridge and was already paid from from our last cycle. If we cancel this cycle then I only have to pay for half the meds.
I'm pretty sure that the increased dose of FSH is working, last cycle it wasn't until around day 16 that I had a dominate follicle at 1.6. I had no real side effects that cycle either. This cycle I've been a bit more teary and the last two days, day 8 and 9, I've had a bit of cramping, well, not real cramping just sort of twinges near my ovaries. I'm a bit bloated too.
Tomorrow on day 10 I go in for my first monitoring blood test. I'm really hoping that everything is on track with the blood work and the results of the husbands SA.
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