Not looking good

I went to the bathroom earlier today and saw that I was having some light spotting. I've been having light cramps for the last day or two and kept telling myself it was nothing.

I rang the fertility clinic and asked to be put through to Nurse J. Yes, she harps on and on about random things but she's the most empathetic nurse there. She's also the same one who took my beta blood test last cycle and rang me with the negative result, I know she can break bad news in just the right way.

Nurse J was in a meeting and called me back an hour later. I told her what was going on and that I thought it could be my period starting. She agreed that this late in the cycle, 13dpo, it's probably not a good sign. My beta is scheduled for Thursday but she's asked if I'd like to come in tomorrow, a day earlier.

She also asked me how I was feeling and I told her I was a bit upset.With the first IUI I wasn't upset at all, I knew it was our first one and a lot of the time the first IUI isn't successful. Both she and the doctor had told us that. But this second one was different, there was so much weighing on this IUI, it was our last chance before moving on. I so badly wanted this IUI to be successful and result in pregnancy.

So tomorrow morning I'll get up nice and early, drink lots of water and have breakfast before driving down to the clinic. And a few hours later I should know the results of the blood test. But I'm pretty sure that my period will be here by then.