Not this month...

I was irritable all day today. Everything just annoyed me. Then it was made worse but my husband coming home in a bad mood from work.

I also had some very light spotting tonight and light cramping. The mood swing combined with the spotting and cramping leads me to believe that my period is on it's way.

Since Monday my husband has been bugging me to buy some pregnancy tests. I don't like to keep them in the house because I'll test way to early and wind up a teary mess when it comes up negative. But here is where I sound like a real crazy person. I also don't like to keep them in the house, because when I was at uni it was a running joke that if your period was late the way to make it show up would be to buy a pregnancy test  and take it. That taking the test will guarantee that you're period will show up the next day. And that's what's always happened in the last few months.

But last night I had to duck out to the supermarket and pick up a few things so while I was there I grabbed a box of First Response tests. (Holy cow are they expensive at the supermarket! A pack of three was nearly $18. I'll go back to buying them at the chemist where they're only around $12).

Well, if my period is definitely on it's way then I can have a cocktail when we go out to dinner with my family to celebrate my sister in laws birthday this weekend. I guess that'll stop the questions and curious looks. Last time we went out to dinner I didn't drink, that combined with the fact that I gave up my beloved diet coke has raised a few eyebrows in the last couple of months.

And it means that later this month my husband and I can go to Seaworld for my birthday and I'll be able to go on all the roller coasters I like. For my husbands birthday last year we went to Dreamworld and I'd just gotten my period that month too.

I know it sounds silly, but I need to find those little things to look forward too. It's sort of my reward for making it through another month of ttc.