Results

Today is Anzac day and a public holiday. I rang the medical centre yesterday to see if they were open today and they were. So first thing this morning, my husband and I went off to the doctors to get the results of our tests. I'd had an ultrasound last month as well as blood tests at 7dpo and cd1. My husband had also dropped off his sample for his seminal analysis.

I was quite anxious about these results, I didn't really sleep well last night and nearly put off going to the doctors for another week. But I'm glad we went today, when my husband has the day off as well.

The results weren't that great. They weren't bad, but they weren't where they should be. My husbands motility and morphology levels were just below the lower range of normal.

My ultrasound showed that my ovaries have the classic look of PCOS, covered in little bubbles is how Dr D explained it. The 7dpo blood test results were good, I did ovulate this cycle so that's one good thing. Even if it was on cd24.

But my cd1 test didn't show what Dr D expected. My hormone levels weren't where she expected they should be. While the ultrasound is showing I have PCOS my hormone levels aren't confirming it.

Dr D explained that the next step for us is to see a Fertility Specialist. She gave us a copy of all of our results plus a referral for each of us to see Dr S who works at one of the two fertility clinics nearby.

While I was sort of expecting that we'd be given the referral, it still shook me. It's a lot to think about. I want a baby so so badly, but I never expected it would come down to having to seek help.

Surprisingly, my husband is handling this fine, he hates doctors and dentists and anything medical. I really thought he'd say "well, maybe we need to have one or two more months at trying on our own first".  I'm the one that wants to cry and mope over it. I'm the one that is still holding out hope that we'll fall pregnant on our own without any help.

I'm not sure what to do next. I know there's a waiting list to see Dr S, he's quite a popular fertility specialist. But I still want to give us one more month. I'm not going to call and make the appointment until later next week. I know it sounds strange, someone who wants a baby so badly is unsure about making the appointment with the FS. But I just need a few days to think about this and come to terms with it.